Happy summer everyone! My husband and I had an amazing weekend away for our anniversary. We walked the beach, strolled the town, and watched, from the balcony of our hotel room, a beautiful beach sunset!
Do you prefer the sunrise or sunset? I’ve got to confess, I looove my sleep! So, I’m sure I have missed several beautiful sunrises! However, there is one that I made my family get up for when we were staying at the Yavapai Point, South Rim area of the Grand Canyon. We got up at 5am, bundled in blankets, and walked over to the center of the railing to get the best view of the canyon.
We were not alone, several other families joined ours as we waited for dawn. As the sun slowly emerged, it was as though I could feel the rotation of the earth moving me slightly forward as the rising sun took over every crevice of the Grand Canyon. The sunrise in the Grand Canyon penetrated my soul in such a deep, spiritual way that has never left me. The all empowering light of Jesus met me at that sunrise!
Have you ever heard the phrase, “It’s always darkest before the dawn?” I have. What I recently discovered is that there is no truth to it; it is just a myth. I equated that phrase to the darkest of night being my “problems” and the dawn being my “breakthrough” or “answer.” In my mind, that phrase gave me hope that even through the darkest of night, the light of day will slowly emerge until it outshines the darkness, bringing about the glory and brilliance of a new day.
When I found out it was just a myth, the Holy Spirit shined a light on a new way of thinking for that phrase. 🙂 As believer’s, Jesus IS the light in our lives.
I am not surprised that I felt Jesus so strongly at the Grand Canyon sunrise. He IS the light of the World. Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior. He has always been with me, even:
- In my darkest moments when I felt unworthy and unloved
- During my darkest emotions when anxiety and depression isolated me
- In one of the darkest places I went where death, in my mind, was taking my mom away from me, and as hard as I tried to see the light, the darkness seemed prevalent
Looking back over those trials, I know that in spite of what I was FEELING, God was always with me. I was treading lightly and feeble in my walk with Jesus in those early days, but He was there! It is in those darkest moments that God can really move mountains, break strongholds, perform miracles, and reveal Himself to us. Complete surrender allows the Holy Spirit to do only what He can do.
After my mother’s death, in exhaustion and complete surrender to Jesus, He showed me all He had done and how present He was during the last few months of my mother’s life. He healed her paralyzed body after her stroke, stopped her from going blind, she had a “vision” of my future family, and all of her medical bills were paid! God did so much, but it was only revealed to me when I surrendered to Jesus and allowed the Holy Spirit to work in my life. I was too focused on my circumstances or the trial I was going through to see what God was doing and had done.
It was in that “darkest hour” that I TRULY first saw the LIGHT of Jesus. The foundation of my relationship with Jesus was built on this tragedy. My mom, a true servant of Jesus, would have loved the fact that God’s goodness was revealed to me in such a special way after this difficult time.
We live in a fallen, dark world but we have a choice on what we choose to focus on: the light of Jesus or the darkness of the world. Since my mother’s death 28 years ago, I focus more and more on Jesus. Is it easy? No. But I realized, I can either give power to the problem or power to Jesus. If I focus on the problem, how can I focus on Jesus? Jesus needs to be first, my friends!
In the song, “God of All my Days” by Casting Crowns I am reminded of all God IS for ME:
In my worry, God You are my stillness
In my searching, God You are my answers
In my blindness, God You are my vision
In my bondage, God You are my freedom
In my weakness, God You are my power
You’re the reason that I sing
‘Cause You’re the God of all my days
Here is the song, if you would like to hear it: Godofallmydays
Believing God’s best for YOU my friends!!
I am the light of the world image: NewLifeChristianChurch
God of All my Days: https://www.lyrics.com/lyric/33224299/Casting+Crowns/God+of+All+My+Days
Sunrise image: visibleearth.nasa.gov
Where you go I also go image: Godcaresbro
2 thoughts on “Darkest Before Dawn?”
I am so hyper aware of this right now.I feel in some ways desperate for some sort of a break though in my current job situation.I know I must do my foot work..update resume..get applications filled out..call and check the status of my apps..I feeling impatient..I know that I don’t have God involved the way I should.Tomorrows sunrise I am spending getting God where I want/need him to be..thank you for the reminder!
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Believing and praying God’s best for you! Love you, sweet sister! 🙂
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